Melting

Blogs have been a bit thin on the ground this week and for that I apologise. The ‘getting more sleep’ thing didn’t work out at all and rather than setting time aside for myself I’ve been busier than ever. I only just have time to hang out with Pea and write a quick post before I really must get my head down to prepare for work tonight.

My main problem is that everything is taking much longer than it should these days. I trained this morning, in the woods where the temperature is much more agreeable, and I still melted. It felt like the air was made of soup!

We did a short route, but the heat just saps the energy out of me. I’m really not complaining though – I’ll take this over the cold any day of the week. I think it’s just that since I’m so new to running I’ve never run in these conditions before, so with every change of the season there’s a new challenge to face. It sure keeps things interesting though.

Last week as well the training sessions have been less intense because, let’s face it, staying out of hospital is the number one priority!

There’s been a lot more fast walking where I’ve just run out of steam, and that’s OK, because it’s still better than doing nothing. The thing that IS bothering me is that the heat has made me swell up like a balloon and I put on 9 lbs (yes, NINE POUNDS) of fluid overnight which doesn’t seem to be showing signs of going anywhere for the time being.

It’s disheartening, but I’ve been eating well so there’s no way on earth that’s 9 lbs of fat. I just need to keep my head until it’s gone and not freak out.

Speaking of training, I need to stop referring to my trainer as ‘my trainer’ because even though we aren’t a couple he certainly is more than that now. Friend doesn’t quite cut it either, because we’re just so close (we do seem to spend every spare minute together!) so I shall henceforth refer to him as ‘Mr. S’. It might get a bit confusing, but I’ll see how it goes.

Anyway, the last week with Mr. S has been great. After training we’ve been sitting in his garden, which backs directly on to some woods. He doesn’t even have a fence at the bottom which I think is just lovely, so it’s even easier for the wildlife to come and go as it pleases. He gets loads of incredibly tame foxes so I’ll have to get a good photo when I remember to take my camera.

We’ve also been watching a series called Detectorists, which somehow managed to completely pass me by until now. It’s on Netflix and it’s absolutely wonderful. It’s sweet, charming and a little odd, and I’m totally in love with it from everything from the camera angles to the theme song, which ‘gives me all the feels’ every time I hear it. I’ve now bought the song and have listened to it quite possibly thousands of times already. Well, I may have exaggerated a bit but it’s certainly been a lot.

Check it out below:

Another benefit from having to decrease the intensity of training is the opportunity for more photos. Just look how glorious it’s been. Everything seems right with the world when it looks like that.

On Sunday I decided to have a rest day and spend some time with my sister. Sister times are always great – I really don’t know what I’d do without her. She lives a 20 minute car journey away but I just didn’t want to be in a car on that particular day so I walked 20 minutes to the train station, took a ten minute train journey, then walked another 40 minutes the other side to her house.

I’ve certainly been treating myself lately (perhaps a little too much) but after I tried my friend’s Apple Airpods I knew I just had to have them. They. Are. Amazing.

So I was walking with a spring in my step blaring out my music and I must tell you – the sound quality is incredible. I had the sun on my face, a breeze blowing through my hair and everything was a damn near perfect as anything ever gets.

After a quick stop at Starbucks for a cold brew we headed to the park to feed the swans. Of course we know that swans have bloody strong beaks, but we’ll do anything to get ‘the shot’. I have little cuts on my fingers but I don’t even care!

 

 

 

Now I just have to hang things out at work for another two weeks then I’m off on holiday, spending four days in the Peak District (everyone please cross their fingers for reasonable weather) followed by a night at a posh spa hotel in Sheffield. I simply CANNOT WAIT.

I must be cracking on now, so as ever, thank you so much for reading!

Hayley x

Lazy Sunday

There are plenty of things I could be doing today. I could get an early start on the laundry, which is typically done on a Monday, I could be vacuuming or I could be cleaning up all of the food my parrot has thrown around the room. Instead I’m sitting here in a onesie with a sleepy bird perched on my shoulder.

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She’s just finished eating her breakfast hence the mucky beak! Last night I came home from work early as we ran out of stuff to do. I could have stayed. No, I should have stayed but to be honest I was just about done for the week at that point. It’s been nice doing more physical things at work- I’ve had better quality sleep and the nights have flown by, but now I ache. My legs are covered in bruises (but they don’t hurt and I have no idea how I got them), my fingers are stiff from trying to grip heavy things and my big toes are very sore where they’ve been rubbing on my steel toe caps. I’ve worn the same boots for months with no problems, but when you start walking a few miles in them they become a bit unforgiving.

The upside of all this activity is that I won the Workweek Hustle challenge I was in with my sister! I only beat her by about 2000 steps so it was still pretty close (2000 steps is not a huge amount in Fitbit world!). And that’s why I’m going to allow myself to relax a little bit today, what with doing 77,000 steps in the last five days!

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On Friday I got a message from the Union chap who said that we have a meeting scheduled with a very high-up manager and HR on Tuesday night to ‘discuss the options available to the business and possible solutions to the concerns you raised’. Which is not good for me. For one, just writing that last sentence has made my heart beat faster and caused me to come out in a sweat. Secondly, if I was going to be permanently relieved of desk duties, then I think they would have just said that. I don’t want solutions, I just want to be out of it! But on the plus side someone is actually listening, and also I might help make life better for the people still doing that job, in the long run. The trouble is I’m finding it hard to keep my principles- a big part of my brain is telling me that we shouldn’t give a second thought to those people and just protect ourselves! Hopefully after this meeting there’ll be some sort of resolution, and I can stop worrying. So one task for my weekend is to try not to stew over it!

I only have a couple of other plans for my two days off, but it’ll be enough to keep me busy. It’s my friend’s birthday tomorrow so he’s coming over today for a Slimming World dinner. When I say friend, I am actually talking about my ex who I’m now very good friends with. I think I’ve gone into this before on here but I’ll just reiterate that yes, it’s a bit of a weird situation, but for now I think we’re both in the same place and happy with how things are between us! Anyways, he’s loosely following the Slimming World plan so I’ll cook up something nice for him. I’m not sure just what yet as I’ve got to go shopping later to actually get the food. I’m hoping something will jump out at me.

Other than that the plan is to be extra lazy and watch about 5 films on my Netflix watchlist. They don’t often have many films that I want to watch (I’m more of a series kind of girl these days) but at the moment there are a good few I want to watch and I need to catch them before they disappear. Thankfully I’ve got a few bags of low-syn skinny popcorn to keep me going during this time.

My hoop did arrive yesterday but I want to get some photographic evidence (for your amusement) before I tell you how that went.

For now, as ever, thank you for reading.

Hayley x

Happy Thoughts

Since I was young I have not really cared for happy, feel-good things. My younger sister on the other hand couldn’t get enough and since we shared a room I was forced to watch Grease until I was ready to poke my own eyes out. I’ve also been thinking back to when I was a teenager and how much I picked up from my parents without realising it. It’s only recently it occurred to me that sadness is not a default setting for humans. I always expected bad things to happen and when they eventually do (well that’s life ain’t it) I felt a sort of bitter smugness that I was right. See, I told you everything is crap! In the last few months my thinking has shifted though, and when I feel bad (which is a rarity compared to how I used to be and is usually caused by external circumstances) I seek out happy things to make me feel better.

My number one anti-sadness tool is the Netflix series Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt. I was talking to a friend who, like me, loves the series Archer which is hands down the most inappropriately hilarious show I’ve ever seen in my entire life and I love it like I would my own child (if I had one). A couple of Christmases ago I got a tweet back from Amber Nash who voices one of the characters and it was one of the biggest fangirl moments of my life! But anyway, I digress. This friend recommended Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt and he’s never seen me wrong with recommendations in the past so despite my misgivings I gave it a try.

While I was watching the first episode I really wasn’t sure. Out of the two main characters one is absurdly flamboyant and the other relentlessly positive- two things in the past that I have despised! But oh my god how I love these characters now! Some if it is really cheesy, cringey humour but I love it all, and am currently watching the series for the fourth time. I was watching it on my lunchbreak at 4am today and was laughing out loud at some of the lines, such as Kimmy getting advice from a drunk psychiatrist who says that ‘happy people value their own needs as much as otherses’ which is the kind of therapy I reckon I would go for! When my parents divorced we had to see a couple of family therapists and it was not an encouraging experience. The first man we saw wore a turtleneck and didn’t say much at all other than the old cliché how does that make you feel? and spent the entire session hiding his chin in the neck of his top then poking it out again- exactly like a turtle going in and out of his shell. Then we saw another lady who tried to get my brother to open up. We had all been speaking except him then she said ‘and what do you think?’ Two times I nearly died- the first time he was asked that question he said that the pattern on the curtains looks like fish hooks, and the second his answer (it’s making me chuckle right now) was I need a poo. Love him! And he hasn’t changed…

So yes, when I’m feeling a bit down in the dumps Kimmy and Archer are my go-to remedies. I think to myself ‘what would Kimmy do’. Not so much ‘what would Archer do’ because that would probably involve copious amounts of alcohol and at least one prostitute.

Work was a little better last night. The shift manager who threatened to suspend me wasn’t in and another manager who I don’t work for came up to me and said he had heard what was going on and just wanted to say that everyone is really grateful that I’m just getting on with doing the job despite everything. He also said that if I ever need to talk to come straight to him. How lovely is that! That’s the kind of support that is lacking elsewhere. Then the acting shift manager came and said much the same thing. My own manager was his usual self and did nothing of any help throughout the shift, and another manager phoned me up while I was trying to deal with people who needed my help to tell me she couldn’t print off some properties another manager was viewing so could I watch the printer next to me to see if anything comes out. See this is the kind of crap I really don’t need when I’m trying to get on with my work! I mean, really? If you are that desperate to use company resources to help another manager show his missus what nice houses he’s found that night then please don’t drag me into it. Or at least get up and walk the 20 steps or whatever it is and have a look at the printer yourself. It drives me potty, but I’m trying to keep out of trouble so I said nothing. Just bottle it all up Hayley and it’ll be fine in the end! Thankfully I have an outlet here at least…

Food has been spot on today. That’s nearly 48 hours of being back on plan after my little blip and I feel totally in control again. Yesterday I made an enormous pasta bake and ate the other half for my work lunch. It weighed about the same as a toddler so and was completely free so it filled me up nicely. Then this morning I dragged myself out of bed early to go on an Aldi shopping trip with my friend. As it happened he was slightly late so I went out in the garden to photograph some of the frost. This wasn’t as fruitful as I imagined it would be because our garden is really barren at the moment, but at least the frosty bamboo was nice and vibrantly green still.

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The trip to Aldi could have been stressful as it was so busy in there, and I felt so sorry for the poor man trying to replenish the fruit and veg section. Now that has got to be a stressful job, trying to negotiate a whole pallet of food around shoppers who more closely resemble zombies. Knowing that I wasn’t spending the whole day there like that guy chilled me out a little! I got some good fruit and veg bargains, the light Benefit bars that count as a B choice and best of all Brooklea Light Skinny Latté yoghurts. I hadn’t expected to be able to get my hands on these, after all getting hold of a limited edition Muller Light was always next to impossible for me. But now I’m a veggie I can’t have Muller Lights because they contain gelatine. Brooklea yoghurts, however, do not! So I was chuffed to bits to get them. I am so easily pleased.

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Ending the day on another positive, it is my last night at work before the weekend, again the evil shift manager is not in, and tomorrow I’m round my dad’s for dinner. For the first time EVER he is being totally supportive of my weight loss. I think I’m the only person left who does Slimming World but hasn’t tried Actifry chips, which they are treating me to as his girlfriend won an Actifry in a competition. I don’t think I can get one myself because if they have Teflon it’s harmful to my bird. But I’m really looking forward to trying them anyway.

So goodbye for now and I hope your weekend is going swimmingly!

Hayley x