Holiday Mode: Engaged!

Yesterday I made a couple of mistakes. First of all, I agreed to do something I didn’t really want to do. I’m aware I’m being annoyingly cryptic, but I’m trying to find the sweet spot between telling you what’s been going on and airing my dirty laundry in public.

Sometimes the relationships we have with people (I’m primarily talking about friendships here) naturally run their course and you just end up drifting away from each other. Sometimes a person is toxic and although the friendship clearly isn’t a good one, it takes some sort of action to get things to their inevitable conclusion.

In my life I have one person who really isn’t good for me in any way, and although I’ve been seeing less and less of said person, for my own peace of mind I know it categorically has to be zero contact from now on. My options are a) block and ignore, or b) face up to it and explain to the person, then block. I feel like the bad guy in both of these scenarios.

After sticking to my guns and staying on plan whilst eating out at Wagamama Sunday afternoon (om nom nom, kare baruso ramen, 14 syns) when I got home I went for option c) eat a load of crap to bury my feelings. Ugh, so dumb. I wasn’t even hungry. I have a nice relaxing day planned tomorrow, so I shall choose which option (a or b, no more c!) to take then actually follow through with it.

In the meantime I’m not exactly looking forward to weigh in because not only did yesterday happen, I’ve also puffed up like a balloon again. I have sausage fingers! So it’s gonna be a gain, however it’s not so bad. I already have my next plan of action. Screw SP, I’m going back to my happy, carb-filled life. Rather than boost my weight loss, SP just gives me a tummy ache, so there’s no point in trying to do a whole week of it. I also know without a doubt that yesterday evening’s slip up is definitely confined to yesterday, and won’t be creeping into this lovely, fresh new week. Onwards and upwards, and no letting a bad few hours turn into a bad month.

So yes, it’s now holiday time! I’m not going away anywhere, but I am really going to enjoy this week. Last night I kicked things off by starting series three of Stranger Things. I intended to watch just one episode then go to sleep, however one episode escalated into the whole series. I liked the second series, but it didn’t blow me away, however the latest offering was right back to original form. Totally loved it. As such I ended up going to sleep at 3am. Oops!

Today I’d planned to do some sorting in my room, but instead I slept in very late and ran out of time. But hey, that’s what holidays are for right?

Now I have to get ready to go to group and find out what the damage is. I’ll update you tomorrow, hopefully from banks of a rather lovely lake.

Until then!

Hayley x

10 thoughts on “Holiday Mode: Engaged!

  1. We’re halfway through the new Stranger Things – love it! I really enjoy the relationship between Dustin and Steve, very funny.

    My friend (who is doing amazingly on SW) doesn’t get on with SP at all, the moment she eats all the carbs she has good losses, must just suit some people more than others.

    xx

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  2. Toxic things need to go and you should not feel any guilt for moving to reduce your toxicity levels.

    You are a fabulous person that DESERVES the best and DESERVES to have someone that’s totally focused on YOU.

    Love is not a one way street. It should be enhance the lives of two people not just one.

    Guilt doesn’t come into it.

    This is loving yourself above someone who doesn’t deserve it. Do what you need to preserve yourself and don’t worry about how your actions in might affect this person.

    As always I’m here if needed x

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  3. Well done you for drawing the line there. You don’t need that toxicity in your life. Honestly, chose the option that will be best for you. If you feel like you need closure: chose option b. Do keep in mind that the person in question might not be acceptive of your explanation. Don’t want to bother any more? Chose a. Don’t chose either of the options, because you think you owe the person in question anything. You don’t.
    Have an absolutely lovely holiday dear.

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