I managed to do a little bit of running this week, even though with the sweltering weather we’ve been having I wasn’t sure it was the best idea. However Mr. S’s local knowledge is unparalleled and he took me to a shady little glen, where there’s a 1.5 mile route that’s perfect for running in hot weather.
The temperature difference in there was astounding – it was so cool. And it was also so pretty. I do love a bit of dappling!
After the run my knee was still feeling OK, so we decided to go again the next day and do the route twice. It’s really hilly, and it was a killer, but still my knee didn’t hurt! I started to feel cautiously optimistic, but then after my pre-work sleep the pain came back with a bang.
I had my doctors appointment this morning and I was told that I have runner’s knee, and that with rest everything should go back to normal ‘soon’. However when I researched it later (at my doctor’s suggestion) it seems it could take weeks before it’s back to normal. There’s also no set treatment because the specific causes can be so varied, so I’m not sure whether it’s OK to cycle or not, or if I should try other strengthening exercises. They could help or make things worse. The only solid advice at this stage is to do nothing, so to speak, so I’ll give it a week of resting and see how things go. I’m not exactly taken with the idea though.
This means that my eating must, must, MUST be perfect. And I’ll be honest, it hasn’t been great (again) for the last week. Then Friday I went out on the town and seriously over-indulged on the liquid diet front, but that really has to be it now. I need to only be saying yes to healthy activities! The good news is that so far I’ve managed to avoid a crazy gain, so that’s something at least.
I’ve definitely slipped back into a habit of using food to deal with my emotions, but thankfully it’s nothing like it was before or I’d be in serious trouble. When I was feeling really, really sad about Mr. S I allowed myself a few ‘eff it’ days, then when I started feeling better and more positive I allowed myself a few ‘well done for getting through it, celebrate with food’ days. Then one epic ‘stumble through the door at 6:30am’ night.
It’s not the way to do it, I just have to be honest here about what I’ve done even if it means I’ve gone against what I said I was going to do yet again. I do believe that no matter how many times I set out to do something and fail, I need to just keep trying. Because even if all I achieve at this stage is preventing myself from regaining everything I’ve lost, then that’s still a huge achievement. After all so few people keep off the weight they’ve lost, I will just grit my teeth and start over as many times as it takes to not become part of that statistic. It doesn’t have to be that way!
The rest of July is going to be great, you mark my words. Yesterday I got myself a nice non-food treat – a little table and chairs so I can eat my healthy dinners in the garden.
I’m going to use my exercise downtime wisely and make sure everything at home is spick and span, plus I’m going to do some core-strengthening and upper body work (basically anything that doesn’t involve me moving my knee too much). I should save a whole lot of time because when I train with Mr. S I spend 40 minutes out of my day driving to our nice locations (it’s important to train in nice places I think but still.. 40 minutes!) and I usually end up staying for lunch afterwards so of course that takes up time too.
All in all I’m just infinitely relieved because I was so worried the doctor would tell me I had to stop running for good. That would have been tough to get my head around, but still if that ever happens I know I’ll be able to adapt.
Right then, I’d best get cracking because the vacuuming won’t do itself. If only it would!
Thanks for reading,