Yesterday was really tough for me. I’m filled with excitement/apprehension/doubts pertaining to a certain member of the opposite sex. I haven’t had feelings for anyone in so long that it’s all a bit overwhelming, and as you can imagine these feelings make me want to eat. All feelings make me want to eat if I’m totally honest!
I woke up from my pre-work nap yesterday absolutely ravenous. I couldn’t have been that bad because the only ‘cheat food’ I have in the entire house is 3 slices of pretend gouda, but even if I’d eaten them I would have perceived myself as a failure.
Instead I cooked every single vegetable I had left in the fridge and had an epic-yet-still-on -plan dinner, but I didn’t feel as smug with myself as I usually do. Some days I feel really positive, and other days (like yesterday) I find it really hard to like myself at all.
All of the above things are connected, but I have a plan in place which should make everything clearer in my mind soon enough. Hopefully I can elaborate in the next couple of days.
I knew I had a run planned with my sister when I left work this morning but I really wasn’t feeling it. It took me an age to get off to sleep as I kept fruitlessly running things through in mind, but eventually I did get off and slept deeply until my alarm rudely woke me up two hours later.
I didn’t leave myself much time to get ready before picking up my sister, so I didn’t have time to think about not wanting to go out. I just had to get up and do it!
One thing is for sure – running is always better when you’re with someone else. It felt much easier than my previous workout, which I did alone, although the split times were quite similar. Well, they were just slightly better on average actually (not stopping to talk to pigs help) even though during the run I was sure that I wasn’t working as hard.
During the times we could breathe enough to hold a conversation me and my little sis filled each other in on what’s been going on in our lives before heading home for coffee. We did 5k in 50 minutes, which considering she has only run once before and hated it, is absolutely brilliant!
There are two happy bunnies right there, despite it being bloody freezing!
Now I need a well earned nap because I’m dead on my feet, and also I need a rest because hopefully I’ll have ‘proper’ training with my buddy tomorrow. As long as he’s well enough that is.
Thanks for reading,