I have felt pretty rotten lately, which is extremely irritating because it’s conflicting with my need to be festive. I’ve had one bug after another, and what with my teeth problems I must admit it’s been tough to stay positive. In the last couple of days I’ve also developed a hacking cough and a really uncomfortable nobbly rash that started behind my ears and has now spread all around my neck.
Thankfully I’ve had a really lovely few days where I’ve had the opportunity to (mostly) relax. I’ve been at my sister’s looking after her birds while she was at a wedding in Italy, although looking after three attention-loving birds isn’t exactly easy. The last time I bird-sat both Kiwi and Petrie attacked me, so I was hoping things would go a bit better this time round.
Unfortunately Kiwi still mostly hates me, although she was showing a few signs of wanting to be friends. They were few and far between though! I have a pretty impressive bite on my neck, which has come up in a big lump (plus I wonder if that has something to do with my rash?), and I had two bites to my fingers, though thankfully only one of them punctured the skin. It’s always a shock to the system because Pea is so gentle. On the rare occasion I’ve had to catch her and hold her down, for instance when I had to give her painkillers via a syringe, she’d give me a warning nip but she never, ever hurt me. Kiwi and Petrie however mean business.
This weekend though Petrie was a little sweetie! She was nicer to me than she’s ever been and she cheered me up no end. At one point she sat on my finger and put her head under my thumb to make me scratch her head! She was just a delight. Excuse my ghost-like appearance here, and my birds-nest of a hairstyle, but in my defence I’d just got out of bed.
Pea had a good time too, she even got to check out a real life Christmas tree!
I took advantage of the combination of being alone and having access to full-length mirrors and took some ‘before’ pictures ready for the new year. I’ll be honest – I even took a set of me completely in the nude, which was scary but when I looked at the pictures afterwards it’s actually not that bad. I didn’t get that sinking feeling I’ve had in the past, rather I could look at them objectively and say ‘right, this is what needs to be done, let’s go do it!’ Or at least ‘let’s go do it after Christmas’ I should say…
The good thing (or sort of good) is that I’m back at work tomorrow so I’ll be burning more calories, and I find it easier to eat healthily when I’m forced into a routine. I’m not expecting any miracle weight losses between now and Christmas Day, but what I do know is that from Boxing Day night I’m totally back on it. I have complete faith in myself that I’m not going to backtrack on that, as I have so often done just lately. In fact I’m both really looking forward to Christmas Day and really, really looking forward to the new year. I’m already prepared!
The weekly calendar will be great for meal planning, the small diary I’ll take with me wherever I go, and the other thing is a scrap book. I have a really fancy photo album, but I also wanted something I can stick odds and ends in like train tickets and the like, plus my Instax photos. Instant film is just so much fun!
Today I had a wander round town to just soak in the Christmas atmosphere, which was great because my Christmas shopping is done so there was no element of stress. It was good to get out and stroll through the park, and laugh at a seagull standing on the frozen lake just as the ice gave way. He had a bit of a fright! It definitely blew some cobwebs away.
Although I do feel like a bit of a failure because my diet has just gone so wrong lately, I also feel like better times are just around the corner. I’m still happy with my appearance, my clothes still comfortably fit, and despite feeling a bit rough these last few weeks I know that 2017 has been the best year of my life so far. I intend to make sure 2018 is even better!
Here’s to the future.