Just a few months ago I was really struggling with my hormones. The doctor put me on the pill, and the first month I didn’t notice a difference. But after that everything changed. I believe there are other factors at work, so I’m not putting my recent weight-loss successes down to a magic pill. I drastically altered my caffeine intake, I found more motivation, I’ve been back at work with no naughty early finishes, I’ve been sleeping better… there are probably more things too. But sorting out the hormone issue has made it so much easier. I was having some ridiculously intense cravings, my boobies seriously hurt for at least half of each month and my moods were gradually getting worse. The boob pain has completely gone as have the cravings. If I leave it too long between meals then I start thinking about convenience foods, but once I’ve had dinner everything is fine again. But the uncontrollable feeling that I must eat junk? It’s a thing of the past (and let’s hope it stays that way). I’m still a moody cow at times but hey, we can’t have everything in life now can we?
All of these changes combined mean that I am now celebrating my sixth loss in a row, and as I’m managing to get more and better quality sleep, I have made the decision to go back to group at the beginning of November. I’m going to be completely honest. I could do it now, but I decided to wait until the current series of Great British Bake Off has finished. Although I’d make it back from group in time to see it, I wouldn’t leave me much time to get ready for work. See this is how strong I’m feeling – I can watch a show about cakes and bread and it doesn’t bother me one bit!
I don’t particularly enjoy group that much, but I need something to get me going on a Tuesday because my step count always suffers at the beginning of my work week. Walking to group and back will make it that much easier to reach my weekly goals. Plus there’s the fact that I’m only 1st 11.5lbs away from target, and I need to be a group member to take advantage of the free membership that comes with hitting my target weight. Finally, although I’m feeling like a total badass when it comes to staying on plan, over the next few months I don’t think there’s such a thing as being too vigilant, and I need to make sure I have extra support in order to stay on the straight and narrow.
Less than two stone to go. It completely snuck up on me and I can’t quite believe it.
Oh yes, I nearly forgot about weigh day yesterday! I lost a very respectable two pounds which I’m very happy with as I’m still on track to achieve everything I want to, plus I only have one pound until I’ve broken my Slimming World weight loss record. Sorry if I’m going over old ground here but I’ll say it again anyway – I did get down to a lower weight once (in the 12 stone bracket), but I was quite ill will gallstones, taking dodgy diet pills AND feeling totally and utterly miserable. So I don’t see that as a real achievement. But even though I’ve been the weight I am now with Slimming World once before, this is still a whole new territory. I’ve never lost weight ‘properly’ like this before. I’m eating healthier now than I have in my entire life, and I’m also the happiest and most well-adjusted I’ve ever been too. And that’s why the weight is NOT going back on again this time.
The only thing I’m agonising over right now is what to do with my weight loss history when I’m back at group. I just want to start over because I don’t care about the past as such (unless it’s something to learn from), as far as weight loss goes I’m only looking forward. I also don’t like the attention it brings when my total loss is read out, and my consultant puts too much emphasis on the relatively short amount of time it’s taken me to achieve. I know what she’ll say though – that it helps other people. So am I selfish for wanting to stay fairly anonymous? I don’t know, but if anyone has any thoughts I’d be genuinely glad to hear them.
Finally, I don’t like a post without a picture so here’s my most recent comparison shot, taken at my sister’s on Sunday. 6st 10.5lbs between the two. I read a comment on someone’s comparison pictures on Instagram once where the person wanted to know why people always look so miserable in their ‘after’ pictures. I can’t speak for everyone else, but for me? I’m just trying not to look too pleased with myself!
It’s all an illusion though. I am very pleased with myself indeed.