October is here and I’m so excited! Normally it’s a miserable month for me, because it’s my birthday month. Every birthday for me as an adult so far has been fairly dreadful and I think last year was the first one where I didn’t cry at any point. Usually the problem is that I’m failing in some respect and it brings it all home that I’m not a proper adult and haven’t done anything right and that every second is bringing me closer to my inevitable demise…
The big three things that used to bother me were that I should be married, I should have had children and I should have reached my target weight by now. Right now I don’t give a hoot if I never get married, I am profoundly grateful that I don’t have any children, and I don’t care that I’m not at target yet because I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that this birthday will be the last one ever that I spend overweight.
Birthdays used to mean eating what I want for a week because I ‘deserve’ to. This year I’m still going to eat exactly what I want, it’s just that what I want has changed dramatically. Treat food has recently become corn-on-the-cob, purple carrots or a fancy variety of kale, but also I stumbled across vegan-friendly baked beans and sausages so I have a few tins of those on order. I really fancy some nice, comforting, nostalgic food, so I’ll have a tin of those on toast (using my B choice) for 6.5 syns and stay completely on track. Now I think of it, at the end of the month it’ll also be a year since I’ve been completely meat free. How mad is that? A whole year and I haven’t even had one tiny little stumble. It’s amazing what we can achieve when we really put our minds to it.
On Instagram the hashtag #onplanoctober is doing the rounds and I am totally on board with that. My sister suggested we eat at Wagamama when we go to London the day after my birthday and although they do reasonably healthy options, I want to keep my halo so I said we can do it another time. Every day this month (and the one after for that matter) is going to be a perfect Food Optimising day, simply because I have too many goals to smash. I know I’ll get my 6.5st award, because I only have 2lbs to go, but I’m also aiming to beat my lowest Slimming World weight. I need 7lbs for that, and with 5 weigh ins to achieve it I know I can do that too. The next milestone is then my 7st award which is 9lbs away. I need an average of 1.8lbs a week to do that… What the heck, I’m aiming for my 7st award too! How amazing will it be if I manage to do all of that? Well, hopefully we’ll see at the end of the month.
I do have another challenge to complete, and that’s Inktober. The premise is simple – 31 days, 31 drawings in ink. There are optional prompts but they weren’t inspiring me so I started off today with a not-so-great little drawing of Hogwarts. Well it is the month of Halloween so why not?
I’m not overly worried about quality, but it will be interesting to see if my drawing skills improve significantly over the course of the month.
Today I am feeling rather crafty so I’ve been painting a paper maché spider and a paper maché bat that I bought from Hobbycraft last year. I have so many art and craft supplies that I always mean to do something with, I thought I was about time I actually cracked on and did it. As such this month is all about fun and creativity. I have no idea what I’m going to do with my little creatures, if anything, I’m just doing it for the sheer joy of creating something.
In the next couple of weeks I’m going to a local farm to pick my own pumpkins and I’m looking forward to that way more than is normal. I nearly went yesterday, but I decided I want to get a big pumpkin for carving and a small one for eating. If I get them now then the big one will go off way before Halloween. I only ever ate pumpkin once before, the first time I ever carved one, and it was foul. But I did eat it raw so it’s no wonder! This year I’m looking forward to finding out what it tastes like roasted, which I imagine will be a lot more pleasant.
Other October plans are visiting Bodiam Castle with my brother and seeing some free fireworks on the last Saturday of the month, which by some small miracle I managed to book off work. This month is going to be frikkin awesome! Despite that I’m still thinking ahead to next year, and have already booked the family in for a Halloween party (or gathering would probably be a more accurate description). Do you know what? I’ve never been to a Halloween or fancy dress party. I don’t have the spare time to do it this year, so next year I’ll be ready and get organised early. Probably some time in July, knowing me…
Right now I’m feeling in a sewing mood so I’m going to toddle off and satisfy that craving.
Thanks for reading,